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Evidence

Metal pins placed,  
One cast removed,  
Twenty stitches pulled,  
Intolerable pain extinguished,  
Indelible peace consumes.  

Called District 22 again today,  
To send the new evidence my doctors saved,  
Meticulously vetted and preened,  
During those years you missed,  
The ones in between.  

See these twenty scars,  
Dancing in scarlet and indigo? 
Each one has a story to tell,   
Of twenty-five bones that never fell.

Yes, here’s the new evidence—  
One testimony never fully told
Far past statutes of limitations
Waiting for justice to unfold.  

District 22: can we pause to hear the story,
Of three boys- each sixteen,  
And one girl: fourteen?
Alone, yet caught in between,
Never arrested,
Though in plain sight,  
Laden in privilege,
Hidden in prideful skin: alabaster white.

You recorded their version.  

Here’s mine:
I remember their shaved heads
With vacant crazed eyes, all ablaze
‘What was I wearing, you ask?’
It’s all bit of a haze, but I remember clearly:
White T-shirts and fitted jeans,
Shiny steel-toed boots,   
No good for the ‘95 heat.   

What’s that—    
‘Why did you wait?’
Yes, it has been some time.  
‘Not much you can do now,  
Try to move on and forget?’  
Oh, yes, and uh huh, 
try to suppress—  
14 and 88, too? 

I’ll get right on that,   

Thank you, District 22.
But dear officer,  
Here is the physical evidence I meant to bring: 
These mended bones,
A survivor: all in repose
With MRIs and CT scans, complete,  
Add them to Chicago’s record- 
As proof 
of what you never chose to see. 

Photograph by J. Wood
  • J. Wood, she/her
  • J. Wood creates testimonial non-fiction to amplify the voices of fellow survivors affected by rape, incest, and domestic violence and resist the stigma of mental illness related to these preventable traumas. 

    Her poems entitled "Mount Hope" and "Old Friends" are found in the 2019 edition of The Untold Stories Survivors’ Magazine. In partnership with The Center for Story and Witness', J. Wood completed a two-day, gender-based violence writing program at The Jewish Museum of Milwaukee in 2018. She was honored to learn from Donna Kaz as a 2020 graduate of her Creative Non-fiction Writer’s Conference and is an aspiring memoirist. 

    J. Wood finds inspiration and strength in the writings of fellow survivors, Toni Morrison, Chris Caine, Zora Neale Hurston, and the research of Bessel Van der Kolk. When not reading or writing, she loves kayaking, walking her dogs with her husband, and cooking for loved ones. She is currently editing a testimonial memoir about surviving an aggravated assault at the age of fourteen while growing up near the Southside of Chicago. It is her hope to encourage survivors and their families to find community, treatment, justice, LOVE and JOY on their path toward healing and wholeness. 

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